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I see the planes flying over my head
Discovering bruises over again
Waiting for a note that never comes
Watch the wind blowing the world undone
I see the water on the lake's (last/left) shore
Coughed it all up but you still demand more
Can't see a thing through the (blurry/covered) glass
Maybe distraction can help make it last

Chorus;
But honey, you know
It's hard for me to let (it/things) go
And honey, you've seen
Firsthand how hard living is for me
And honey, you're fine
If you want to come around this time
And honey, I don't
Want you to think you can leave me alone

I see the sun setting behind the hill
(Reaching/Stretching) out, I can('t) touch it still
If I blink (it's/we're) (done/gone) so I won't close my eyes
They've (swollen/watered) up so bad, I can't recognize
I see the stoplights flashing bright at e
Confused as ever, it's a mystery
We start to move, a lazy Susan spinning slow
And I can't run, full circle is when I'll go

(Chorus)

I see your face coming (closer/clearer) now
I should push you away, but I don't know how
Can't make myself hold it in today
You know you broke me, you should (notice/see it) anyway
I see a path leading to nowhere
Want a way out?  You won't find it there
Markings on myself (that) I have made
I may grow taller but they'll always stay

(Chorus?)

Oh what, oh what would make this better
Get out, get out of our lives
And yet, and yet (don't want to/you make me) regret
Don't make this a goodbye

(Chorus)

And honey, I don't
Want you to ever leave me alone
And honey, I don't
Want you to ever leave me alone
Today let it go, figured that you shouldn't know
(I) Tried to walk away, the colors made me afraid
To know who I am, to find out why
There's chalk everywhere, from games before we used to care
Now trapped in a small box, you're threatening to melt the locks
To contain my memories, unless you disagree
Dead alive, not tonight
Straight ahead, I'm not it

Chorus:
Walking in shadows under clear blue skies
Waiting for signs to tell me this is life
Hoping that I will go through this alone
Helping myself so I won't drag you down
Because you care, oh won't you care

I see there's no reply, not even signs of other life
And hanging from a tree, would you be ready to catch me
So I won't fall, I'm safer while
Hiding in my sheets, amber tongue can't touch me
Still your face haunts me, an automatic I-can't-sleep
And I can't breathe, it's choking me
Rest your head, not done yet
In and out, nice and loud

(Chorus)

Bright green numbers change, (pretending (that) they have a range/in them some interest I feign)
No emotion flares, I've turned away, I don't care
A microscope, (you took my hope)
For the future warnes, messages from impending storms
Say there's no escape, living's a many-sided shape
It twists and turns, and fractals blur
Overdone, should have won
Cards will fold, like (some pronoun) wrote

(Chorus)/(some sort of bridge)

Walking in shadows under clear blue skies
Waiting for signs to tell me this is life
Seeing the world around me, it's so clear
Like (brand-new/fresh-cleaned) glass, (perfection/it slowly) disappears
Because you care, oh won't you care
Can't make you care, oh won't you care
Just let me go
Cut the strings and float away
It helps to know
That I'll be happier someday
I hope I'm happier someday...

Oh love, slipping through my waiting hands
I've lost what (staves/fights) the emptiness
We're done, as we fail to make amends
How wrong when we used to be close friends

Chorus:
Just let me go
Cut the strings and float away
It helps to know
That I'll be happier someday
Is this how it feels
Wishful thinking will consume
(Make it/Hope it's) (not/un)real
Wrong place wrong time (is/are) (set to/put in) bloom

Oh hope, magnetizing my mind clean
It works, targetizing all my dreams
Oh no, I've forgotten what it means
When you decide to show your (selfish sheen/true appeal)

(Chorus)

Oh I left the door open again
And you had no choice but to look in
I lie, I don't know what I should prevent
You (leave/smile). and you make me want revenge

(Chorus)

Oh life, changing on me (all the time/every night)
You'd think that it could look me in the eye
And explain how I always end up right
When I (think/say) (I won't make it through this time/it's gonna be a damn long night)

(Chorus?)/(Some sort of bridge)/(Chorus?)

Just let me go
Cut the strings and float away
It helps to know
That I'll be happier someday
I hope I'm happier someday...
[As you can see, many possible titles.
I wanted this to be a more layered, twisting, repetitive song.
I hate how much the chorus sounds like Foo Fighters in my head.]

First call, second call
Suddenly you start to fall
Stumbling, tumbling
Mutating into nothing
Empty, full, emptiness
Ignore the first, flatter the rest
Can't describe, seeing live
Wait for the notion to arrive

Pre-Chorus:
All I'll ever be to you is nothing
And nothing I can do (will/can) ever change that

Chorus:
Hey
This is how it feels to feel like nothing
Hey, oh
This is how it feels to feel so (blank/clean)
Hey
Sometimes it's kind of nice to feel like nothing
Hey, oh
(Sometimes it's kind of nice to feel so (clean/free/blank)/You know it isn't me you have to thank)

Burning again, I don't know when
(Wait 'til I count down from ten)?
Have a cause to break the laws
Does it count if no one saw?
Use your phone, stay alone
Doesn't matter once you're home
Fall asleep to try to keep
(Two steps back for a running leap/Leave your name after the beep)

(Pre-Chorus)

(Chorus)

Last call, missed it all
Inevitably you start to fall
Mumbling, fumbling
(Always shown/Depicted) as nothing
Stay inside, try to hide
So long ago, habits (derived/contrived)
Consumed in pain, covered in shame
Anything that sounds the same

(Chorus)

Hey
And if all I am to you is nothing
Hey, oh
What's the point in stringing me along?
Hey
'Cause all I'll ever be to you is nothing
Hey, oh
(That's why/And so) when you (keep/hold) me close it feels wrong

(Chorus?)
Paranoia haunting
Always follows where you'll go
Confrontation hiding you
Condemnation finding you
Oblivion casts you out
Where we belong, you still don't know
So who are you to answer me
And (who/what) are you to be (arguing/fighting) or

Chorus:
Falling, throw it out
To make a hole deep in the sea
Get your bearings, take the time
To get a massive hold on me
Sun shines burning cold
Rays shine all alone
And nothing (tastes/feels/is) so good
As when you exist simply to be

Calling out your questions
But the response comes too slow
And you feel the world (around/surrounding) you
And it makes you choke, (astounding/surrounding) you
Wondering, no direction
You don't know where you'll go
You reject the things I said to you
Never take the (chance/choice) I made for you

Chorus:
Falling, throw it out
To make a hole deep in the sea
Get your bearings, take the time
To get a massive hold on me
Fingers to your palm
Try to keep you warm
And nothing (tastes/feels/is) so good
As when you exist simply to be

You're still sitting in that silence
Feeling different from the fall
Static motion costs a thousand minutes
Missing pieces take a thousand tries
Bombarded with confusion
Controls you, scattered in the ground
Put your head down, darling, live in lies
Cross out (constraints/?), sweetheart, live in time

Chorus:
Falling, throw it out
To make a hole deep in the sea
Get your bearings, take the time
To get a massive hold on me
Making massive words
Making you unheard
And nothing (tastes/feels/is) so good
As when you exist simply to be

Mother's comfort shapes your future
Growing up without a cause
Inspiring lust and love-like dreams
Careful or they'll crush your dreams
Bright lights, frozen in the moment
Time can change to what you know
Tables turn on you and take your heart
Your friends turn on you, you fall apart

Chorus:
Falling, throw it out
To make a hole deep in the sea
Get your bearings, take the time
To get a massive hold on me
Feeling full of doubt
Much too full to shout
And nothing (tastes/feels/is) so good
As when you exist simply to be

Bridge:
And when was the last time
It's better not to try
And what was that last thing
It's better not to think
And who was the last one
It's better to...

Chorus:
Falling, throw it out
To make a hole deep in the sea
Get your bearings, take the time
To get a massive hold on me
Road maps of your face
Old maps have replaced
And nothing (tastes/feels/is) so good
As when you exist simply to be

Apprehensive, on the outside
Ropes are pulling you back home
Ignoring terms of blatancy
Rejecting types of irony
Trying hard to reach you
And I'm dialing for a cause
Is that the point you're teaching me?
Your logic's not reaching me

Chorus:
Falling, throw it out
To make a hole deep in the sea
Get your bearings, take the time
To get a massive hold on me
Inexplicably
You're able to see
And nothing (tastes/feels/is) so good
As when you exist simply to be

Sun shines burning cold
Rays shine all alone
Some days I get to thinking
That it's all too much to take
My head gets to pounding
And my vision starts to shake
Then some days I just can't deal
With all of my mistakes
You might call them trivial
But they're ones (I always/I'm scared to) make

No, it's not too simple
The (complexities/complex problems/tragedies) I face
And then I get so caught up
Well, I feel so out of place
(I just look too tiny/I guess I'm just too tiny)
(In/For) this giant space
I may be living for the moment
As for the past, I still can't face

I curl up in my closet
When living gets too hard
And now you want to talk
But I can't let down my guard
And when I hit the ground, all
The pieces break to shards
I'd tell you what's the matter
But I don't want you alarmed

I find it hard to smile
Every other day
(You like/Your habit's) to wipe my tears
And tell me I'm okay
I know you'll never leave
But sometimes I'm still afraid
If I let everything out
I might chase you away
Inspired by Donnie Darko.

"Cellar Door"

Wake up, mom says, so my eyelashes meet
I'm alive, won't die until my future's complete
I can't win in this never-ending world of pretend
I can't stop, can't wait until it comes to an end

Chorus:
Crashing in my room
It's just too soon
To tell what I'll be
You keep acting fine
But I know, in time
You'll see there's something wrong with me
Yeah, something wrong with me

Life's tough, shrink says, but I don't miss a beat
I live, I breathe, always on my feet
Commit my crimes without any cause
Yeah, I'm damn scared, but (I hate/fuck) your laws

(Chorus)

And the world is mine...
The world is mine...
Don't waste your time on me
It's just too late for me
Don't waste your time on me...

(Chorus)

Time's up, Frank says, so I go back to sleep
I can't ignore him because he takes care of me
Can't tell what's real, don't know if I'm dreaming
Eyes just hurt, I can tell that it's gleaming

(Chorus?)

(I'm still searching for
My cellar door
To take me away/?)
I'm already through
But I'll promise you
Everything'll get better someday
Everything'll get better someday...
Violence, tossing off the silence
Colors just so vibrant
Worries on the wall
Shining, fingers intertwining
Where's the silver lining
To create hope for me
And for the second time
Please don't say goodbye
And for the second time
Please don't say goodbye

Chorus:
No, I won't let you go
This time, have we finally got
In line, never stepping out of place
Well, tell me
Why I will never know
How it feels to walk away
Just walk away

(Not) Sleeping, waiting for tomorrow
Running out of sorrow
To take you away
Losing, look how fast you're moving
Not my choice but I'm still choosing
To get you to agree
And just for one more time
Please don't say goodbye
And just for one more time
Please don't say goodbye

(Chorus)

Breathing, hating all your teasing
Leave me alone, I'm pleading
Don't treat me this way
Hiding, sick of so much fighting
I need to stop righting
Everything that's wrong
And for the seventh time
Please don't say goodbye
And for the seventh time
Please don't say goodbye

(Chorus)

Well I hope you're happy knowing
That you're all I think about
And I hope you're happy knowing
That I can't figure you out
And I hope you're happy knowing
That I'm so lonely

And for the final time
Please don't say goodbye
And for the final time
Please don't say goodbye

(Chorus)

Leading, you're not done repeating
Little moments, fleeting
I need to let them go
Please don't say goodbye
Curling up to fit the mold
Push me over and I'll fold
Hearing noises in the dark
Don't expect to be rescued (by you)
Curving letters out of reach
Missed the lesson that you teach
You could try to pull me apart
I made it easy for you to

Chorus:
You've got that golden light falling on you
Golden light shining through you
Golden sun burning (up/out) your (life/mind)
You've got those opal eyes staring through you
The poisoned tongue speaking for you
Golden heart weighing down your chest
Golden heart lifting up the rest

Reaching fingers, frozen-cold
Taller frame, I'll never hold
No motivation, make no move
It's like they're talking about me
But for me I see no end
Twisting spirals keep me in
Drying deserts dehydrate
No magic word to set me free

(Chorus)

And I just need you here for a day
Oh how I wish you'd take me
Oh please sir won't you take me
Somehow make myself walk away
And I just need you

(Chorus?)

Now I narrate tragic tales
That can turn your face so pale
I've run out of ways to ask
I don't know how to make it more obvious
Now you're off with someone else
And I'm here all by myself
I knew it would be hard
But I wasn't quite prepared for this

(Chorus)

And I just need you here for a day
And I just need you (here)
I'm not afraid to be walking down this road
Can you see yourself living on your own
I'll be coming out clearing spiderwebs
Trying to ignore everything you've said
And those flowers that you gave me
Now they're wilting on the windowsill
And now the lamplight's showing
What you probably never will

Chorus:
So alone, when you're not in love
So close, you've had enough
Hear me out, stuck in this rut
Stop yourself, army of one

Crystal-clear memories I have kept
Meaning so much more than the rest
If I were smarter I would realize
I was in the right place at the wrong time
If you were any kind of sane at all
You'd light your life on fire
If you were any kind of man at all
You'd try to explain to me why you're

(Chorus)

Reality tends to repeat itself
On your knees wishing to be someone else
Maybe I'm fine but maybe I need help
I can't look at reflections of myself
Shoes walk on without you
Can't keep up, just let (them/it) go
Roof of tin starts heating up
These nouns won't let you show

(Chorus)

Everyday things take their toll
Just plain living is killing me
Cover my ears to hide from the truth
I'm what I never wanted to be
I wanted more
You wanted everything I couldn't be
I wanted you
Did you want me

(Chorus?)

You didn't want me
Cooling off, I'm somewhere far from home
Run away, I want to be alone
Save yourself, don't let me pull you in
Say goodbye, I'll never get to (win/live)
I'm insatiable, uncomfortable
And you wonder where I've been
Trying to hold back the overflow
It should make you mad to shade it in

Chorus:
So, so long, it's gone
The last shred of my sanity
I couldn't hold on
It's over and out from here
I'm caught up(, I'm/on) losing
All the things that make up me
Becoming a blank human being
Misplacing my will to be

Please don't try, (I) can't bear to have you fail
Sun gets high and I become more pale
You can't lean on me, since I will surely run
Persevere, this headache's just begun
Screaming around these gritted teeth
Crying out through my clenched jaw
There's a pounding in my head again
It takes me over, I start to fall

(Chorus)

Mellow dreams repeated on the wall
I've backed myself against, I had it all
Irritation lowers my last hope
Heating up, emotions make me choke
Living in a memory
It's better than living as time flows
Reality's too sensory
I almost have to let it go

(Chorus)

Bridge:
And there's no delicate way to describe
The intricate ways I've (fucked up/ruined/trashed) my life
If you're (alive/living), living, leave me be
If you're ((alive/living), living/bleeding, breathing), stay (away/far/back) from me

(Chorus)

(Screaming around these gritted teeth
Crying out through my clenched jaw
There's a pounding in my head again
It takes me over, I start to fall/
Living in a memory
It's better than living as time flows
Reality's too sensory
I almost have to let it go)
(Or both verse things.)
Composed, faking a smile
Losing your clothes, taking a while
It's so hard to put on your robot face
Oh, put on your robot face

Tractors, toasters, swirling, purple
Stars scattered on cars
Windshields wiping, washing worries
Finding what you are
If it were a table well then
Would we turn in circles
Maybe there's a line
That we're all forgetting now
And now Sweet & Low gives you cancer
That's a prime example of the fact that
Everything good will kill you off someday
Goddamn, you can't escape

Chorus:
Composed, faking a smile
Losing your clothes, taking a while
To be exposed, strobe lights showing the way
Words fall apart, raining down sounds
And I will start my own damn marching band
(And)It's (so) hard to put on your robot face
Oh, put on your robot face

Wrecking the best day of your life
One minute at a time
Leaving life alone
Now it's become your time to shine
Silhouetted profiles
Seagulls soaring far away
And hey radiating hot and happy
Leaving me in pain
And now Google doesn't know the answer
That's an explanation for the fact that
Everything right will end up wrong someday
Goddamn, you can't escape

(Chorus)

It's below zero but I'm burning, burning
I make mistakes but I'm learning, learning
Time flies, running around with work you despise
Affection, showing it off to miss rejection
Somehow everything I've done doesn't count
Bedframes standing there empty to keep me sane
Oh, bedframes standing there empty keep me
(It's below zero but I've burnt)

(Chorus)

It's below zero but I'm burnt
I make mistakes but I've learnt
It's below zero but (I'm/I've) burnt
It's so hard to put on your robot face
Oh, put on your robot face
Sometimes my song notes are a little confusing if you don't know how to read them.  Sorry.

Chorus:
Maybe you can hold me back
Maybe I can hold you down
Maybe you can write a letter for me
Explain the outside world you found
But past all that, still here we are
Above all this, you left me scarred

There may be things I can't deny
There may be things that I let die
It's hardly right that every single night
I lie awake without you
Like a virtual buffet
Of everything that's wrong with me
Spread out wide, for you to (recognize/realize)
What could you do to help me?

(Chorus)

Migrating south to miss the storm
Growing shields to keep unharmed
Can barely breathe when you talk to me
Gripping my shirt, I can't stop

(Chorus)

It's funny that you never see
The way I fell so quickly
I'm drowning here, you're adding to my fear(s)
Shrugging me off, I can't go

And all the things you never (thought/said/say)
And all the things you never see
Are all the tiny little things that make up
The things that I think make up me
(I/You) can't argue, what would (I/you) say
You're here to take my breath away

((Chorus/You're here to take my breath away)/(both options))
In addition to photographing...I write songs.  So be on the lookout for my lyrics being posted.  If you want to.